Redeeming Coffee Spoons

When you're doing it because it must be done,
and well, but can't without help
from caffeine,
and struggle to mediate surfaces untroubled only by your mediation;
wondering if you're just imagining this importance,
inflating your bubble—maybe it, you will
break
together—
maybe nothing means...
...but maybe the way you measure
your life with coffee spoons
is not the same. Maybe it doesn't mark time
but make a mark in it.
(Or you're just drinking
coffee.)